off that showy platform

Why I was finding it difficult to tell everybody that I was fired because of low performance was because I had been trying to form relationships with people based on display of intelligence -- by creating an image. When I talk with people, I try to show that I am smart -- the why of this is ofcourse covered in the early postings in this blog (d&d) -- and then try to create friendships based on this image that I created.

Now how can I tell that I am fired because the platform my friendships rest on is to be taken away?

Now I am learning that this whole method was wrong.

Friendships should not be formed on these "imagy" platforms. Friendships are emotional connections between people for mutual support, love, caring -- they form, because after all, everybody wants just the same things as everybody else: a nice, happy life, filled with some amounts of togetherness, love, fun, personal fulfillment, attachments.

Now that I am telling people about my firing from my job -- I am feeling better. Much better. It relaxes me to feel now that I dont have to create or maintain that showy platform any more. The friendship will now be based on a new idea, a new paradigm. It will now be based on growing together, being colleague in this long torturous as well as rewarding journey.

Lets do the best we can. :-)